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Sleep? What is sleep? For the past month or so, I have been getting a fraction of the sleep a normal person should be getting. Most nights I've been pulling in about 4-5 hours of sleep, with extremes ranging from 2 hours to 7 hours, but never 8 or more. I haven't spent a day to sleep to catch up, and it's taking its toll. Since Alaska chick (Kayla) was out here, the sleep factor has been pulling more towards the 2-4 hour mark, since we hung out every night she was out here except for one and the fact that I work every morning at 830. But I haven't minded cuz it was awesome being able to spend all that time with her.

I kinda picked up strong feelings for her while she was out here and she did for me as well. And while I don't wanna get into it in this blog, I can say that after I took her home from my place Wednesday morning I went into this intense state of nothingness, and I walked around like a sullen zombie all day long. It's still kinda hanging around today, and my guess is I will feel like that for quite some time to come, as she really means something to me now.

Yesterday I decided to clear up some time to play cards, and given my current state I'm seeing now that it was not such a good idea. I haven't played much but I've been dyin to play, though, so it seemed like a good one at the time. I started out by playing my usual SnG, I took 2nd and $60 again when my 99 ran into Ad10h, and the board came d-d-d, s, d. Thanks for that poker Gods, but a simple 10 will do next time :). After that I saw a 20+2 MTT $4000 guaranteed and figured I'd be good for cash, but a bad move at the worst time sent me out in 130th, and needless to say I was pretty pissed with myself, as I'm trying not to make dumb moves anymore.

After that I gave it another go at the SnG, and as chip leader 5 handed I made a move in a hand where I had not paid close enough attention to the board, and I ended up finishing 4th in that one with no money. Insert self-defamation here. So I got this great idea to play 1/2 Omaha H/L, and decided to go with a short buy of $22 to keep things even steven with my buy-ins. I was crushing the 5/10 Omaha H/L on Party at the time Joe was playing 5/10 Stud, but things weren't going in my favor on this night. I ended up losing the buy-in, which I wasn't too upset about because it was a small buy. What I was upset about was the fact that at this point I didn't feel like I was playing my best, and that doesn't fly with me!

Joe showed up and saw how distraught I was about Kayla leaving, so he suggested the only thing that could cheer me up: Taco Bell. Yeeeeeees, heavenly Bell. We went to eat and it was sweet, sweet victory! After that we went down to the Mash to buy-in for Kirk, and now everything is set for Saturday. I talked to Darsky a little bit today about plans for Friday, and it seems like we might just go up to the Mash to play Friday night instead of hang at Joe's, but I dunno I'm in the crossroads of a decision right now, so I'll just play it by ear.

On the night I lost $28 in the poker swing, and while $28 is no big deal it feels more of a mental loss since I knew I wasn't in the right place to be playing. I was sleep deprived and had my mind on other stuff, and I wasn't feeling well. I got a good night's rest last night, and I'll most likely play some more tonight. And while I am depressed about Kayla not being here anymore, my mind is really on my game because of last night and I should be able to pull in some wins tonight, so I will blog it up like none other probably at the end of tonight.

Adios.

Bankroll: $712